Honesty

Hello there everybody. It's 3.09 am and I am here to talk about something very important that I believe and feel that I should share/talk/discuss about. I don't know if anyone reads this space but it's such a nice and clean space to share my thoughts and views and what I've learnt. It also motivates me very much when I share my thoughts to actually do as I think and do as I write and acting upon something is such a rich and respectable thing.

Anyway, we all have the tendency to lie to ourselves about things to stay in the safety zone. Okay not safety zone but to be in our comfort zone for god knows how long. And sometimes our comfort zone will coupe us up rather than open us up and then that's when you know that your comfort zone has become your danger zone. especially when rapid and huge changes are happening in your comfort zone, indicating that it's time to get out. and that's when you really have to get out. and obviously once you get out, things will get fucking out of hand and the process might vary. it might be short for others it might be long for others. and the process would involve loads of what the fuck moments, loads of okay this feels good moments, a lot of weird voids in your heart moments, and moments of contentment but when you think about it, it makes you more aware of feelings and situations and more pro active to what you have to do. Okay i'm going too deep into the process, but the process is the most important part ever, the process makes you understand and the process pushes you and when it pushes you you really have to go with the push, get the fuck out there and act upon it because no one would act or help you on being fucking better other than your own fucking effort, and your own heart. you can't be stubborn and you can't stay in fucking comfort. wouldn't you back and body hurt from lying down on the fucking couch? you've got to move, you've got to swing your arms, youve got to look far and then near you've got to shake things off and you've got to breathe new air. and that is what the process of becoming is all about. it's about putting yourself into the unknown and experiencing all of this pain, all of this uneasiness, all of this contentment, all of this "okay life is gonna be okay and life is okay." it's also about realizing the people who love you it's realizing the need to balance your elements. it's to find the truth and it's to increase your faith in where life and god brings you.

But what I'm here to advice, and what I need to learn is to learn to not to lie to yourself. You won't get anywhere when you lie to yourself. It's horrible if you have loved ones who have lied to you, I don't know if I've experienced that, but I hope I don't in the future. Or in the present. But it's worse if you lie to yourself. Because it's you and you are you and it's horrible if you live a lie about how you're supposed to live your life or how your life is like now. You have to be honest. If you think your life suck, tell yourself it does. But remember to work and to take the best out of the truth and work on it. Work so hard for your own life that you're able to take the truth and make the fucking best out of it. Tell yourself. Tell yourself that you're not happy but be honest with the courage you gather and be honest about how you make it better. That's so fucking beautiful. You really have to be honest with yourself. If you realize that you have been living for others and for people who now don't give a shit about you, work on it. Realize that you have no space for people who don't give a shit about it. Realize that it hurts, realize that you feel anger but realize that you can't have those feelings in you, be honest that you know deep down you're better than that. Be honest with yourself, but avoid ever feeling sorry for yourself. But i believe that once you're honest with yourself, self pity is away man, and self pity is off. Why? because you're fucking dealing with yourself and youre fucking slapping yourself with the honest truth and you're fucking manning up to yourself and that's beautiful.

I'm learning so much and it's crazy. And I hope from the bottom of my heart that I'm implying whatever I am learning. But I believe in my heart that I am because I am so excited. I do get worried about how I will feel the next day, I do worry about what will trigger my mind set and my feelings, but then again, I am in love with the honesty in my life and I am in love in how I am honest with myself about how I am in the situation around me. It's true, the truth hurts. It hurts so much but you can never ever run away from it. Even if you do run away from it, it'll eventually reveal itself to you. Be enthusiastic about being honest, and be enthusiastic in achieving for the better. Even if there's no such thing as better or worse, but better just feels so good. Have a vision on what you wish to achieve and be so honest with yourself about it. Be honest to the people around you too. Never lie. A lie leads to another lie and you'll be in a mess. Love live and live with honesty.

You can do it, I can do it. Look at the bigger picture. Whatever shit you're going through now, it might be horrible and it might feel like a huge part of your life and it is. But remember, we can always break through from things if we just fucking let go and venture out into the present. Step the fuck out of your comfort zone, feel fucking uneasy and try to make it right. And do it over and over again. Be excited on living life in the edge. Be excited about falling into mistakes. But fall inlove with honesty, fall inlove with kindness.

Good night :-)